new pain

so Ruhaan Singh is turning 2 in another 2 wks. v've planned this huge party wid all our family and friends at Travel Town, Griffith Park. Its a train coup, the venue which ll b followed by a train ride for all.
How is Ruhaan progressin these days, pretty gud vd say. The moment he is taken out, an independent soul tht he is, he jus wants to b by himself doesntwantus near him, till he needs us ofcourse if he s been hurt or smthg he cant reach to..
at home, he s been driving me crazy...wid aggressive behavior, hittin me, throwin things not eating his meals (he is at 25%ile in terms of weight for his age). shikhar n i r very anxious. he hates fruits n veges or bread or chapatis, no cereals..wht r v left wid?? jus milk ll not suffice nemore.
yest nite, he swished my fingers between the door n its frame. i had jus finished cleanin his puke off his clothes n washed the area wid cold water. this was nite time n my fingers cold. he hurt pretty bad, my eyes swelled up wid tears. later i hear he squished shikhar's fingers too.
im findin it difficult to tame him down n make him listen to me, at all!!!
im concerned bout the future, how it may shape his personality. shikhar says its a phase, will pass...God, i hope so.
i feel at though nothing i ever do, is gud enough for him n he s mad at me, thts y this behaviour coz afterall he does spend max time wid me. i am responsible for wht he does or not.